Touched...

 

 

 

It has been over 9 months since I have last posted...

I could not post anything more beautiful then the good news of my youngest son receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost at old fashioned altar in an amazing Apostolic service.

It was the day before my 46th birthday, April 7, 2013, on a Sunday night. My son, Julian, was apprehensive at first but decided to worship down front with me. It was just another Sunday night, with great preaching, wonderful music and amazing worship. He quietly raised his hands as I began to pray behind him. There were many people around us doing the same thing. I stood behind him as the tears began to fall, at that moment I realized I was not the only one praying for my son. His father, men of God, young people, older people... If he wanted to stop now, there was no way out of praising and worshiping God with so many praying in encouragement and in unison for one purpose... For Ju to be filled with God's spirit.

It was amazing to watch this young child pray fervently for the touch of his Savior. Ministers layed hands on him, prayed with him and spoke to him... Julian didn't even realized what was happening until he felt the power of the Holy Ghost... I was pulled to move in front of him so I could see what was happening... As the tears began to fall, Julian realized the touch he had been praying for was finally here... Being filled with Gods wonderful spirit,  the power of the Holy Ghost speaking in other tongues.

I have to say... I am one happy mommy and he was one happy little guy; after three years of seeking, he was deeply 'TOUCHED' and blessed beyond measure.

 

 

 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth.

3 John 1:4

 

 

First Day of Summer 2012

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Yesterday was Julians last day of school, which makes today feel like a Saturday. I turned on the radio expecting for Kids and Company to come on but of course it did not because today is FRIDAY. So what is planned for today with a 9 1/2 year old? Nothing, absolutely nothing... It has been an absolutely beautiful lazy day.
The weather is lovely and the house is quiet (no preschoolers today). My heart feels good and revived in the LORD... He woke me up this morning with renewed life.

Not because my bank account is full
Not because I'm able to meet our bills
not because my children are serving Christ
Not because my husband has a fantastic job
Not because I'm healthy...

But because I know who I am, who I serve, who I love, and who I once was. God has been at work and many lives have come to know Him because of His mighty acts and the healing He has done. For that I am very thankful... Sometimes I feel completely unworthy of such a merciful God, but I know His love is greater then my failures and faults.
I've realized that the struggles of my life are not from Him but from the prince of this world... He has brought on sickness and pain. Struggles and hurts. Heaviness and burdens...
We need to remember that our God is for us and not against us... He has promised new life and freedom from our burdens and pain. He is a God of goodness and wishes for us to worship and love Him with all our heart, mind and soul. He wouldn't place unsettling burdens on us to distract us from what is really purposed in our lives.

I am persuaded that nothing could separate me from the love of God, nothing.
Be encouraged my friends and trust in the mighty God, Jesus Christ. He will meet those bills, He will save your children, family and friends, He will bless your job or give you something better, He will heal the sick body and help you get through those rough areas in your life. Our God is a God of purpose and not a God of destruction... If He has brought you this far, He will bring you the rest of the way.
In Christ name, Jesus... We are victorious!

Thankful for; Jesus Name Lighthouse

Here I go talking about posting everyday about something I am thankful for and I cannot even do that small task. So let me try and make up the last 5 days.

Being thankful is something we should always be and should take us further than these 30 days. But of course this has been hard for even me to come and sit at my computer and  post a daily praise report.

God forbid that there is no praise or thanksgiving in my heart. I am extremely thankful and give Him all praise and honor! Just this life alone (a life in HIM) is worthy of praise and I will forever be thankful!!

First of all Id like to say I'm extremely thankful for Jesus Name Lighthouse; the church our family attends at this time. It came into our lives at the most ugliest and worst time of our existence; lust, hate, depression, disgrace, shame, unforgiveness, hostility, and dispare.... We were in the deepest part of a pit that had no bottom. In the midst of our falling we were being  weakened, divided, and completely shattered into tiny little pieces that in no way could ever be put back together again. Our family was not going to survive this reduced state that we were becoming. Not in a matter of days but minutes upon the hour (for you see, I believe the enemy knew he only had a limited amount of time before an all out revival would take place. If were saved he knew we were going to me mightier than we've ever been in our life time serving Christ).

Pastor Champlain and his wife, Gayla, came to our rescue. I say rescue because everyone we were devoted to and loved with all our hearts turned their backs on us and left us to die. And in all reality that is OK because I really feel this deserting was in the will of my father. For you see this rescue in our lives came from a wonderful family and a beautiful church. They came to us, pulled us out of the pit as we were falling and gave us hope. They prayed for us our children and our home, there were many demons to fight and what a fight they gave... not for themselves but because they saw souls they once knew being destroyed by the destroyer himself. They knew we were not who we once were being deceived into believing lies upon lies of lust and pride; that we were no longer the true believers of the Cross as we once were.

It has been four years and four months since the time of our deliverance, and so much I am not typing here, that I am so thankful. Restoration, love, mercy, forgiveness, grace, peace, joy, power, anointing, healing and just plain revival has entered our lives thru Jesus Name Lighthouse. God used these ministers to reach out to our cause. Pastor's saying is 'Show the world Jesus' and that he did in tremendous ways, he has shown our family Jesus. He also says 'he is not building a church but leading souls to Heaven' and that is how he leads his church; thru strong preaching, accountability, love and repentance, forgiveness, restoration and mercy; because what is important is to make heaven our home!!

I don't know where we would be today, November 6, 2011 if it had not been for this Pastor and his church. I will be forever grateful and thankful for all the work God has done in us thru JNL.

No, we have not attained all that needs to be obtained, for we are a work in progress. We will not reach our fulfillment until we reach our glorious Heaven!

Thank you Jesus Name Lighthouse for not letting us stay in the gutter of dispare and dieing in our sins, but bringing us before a loving God torn and in ruin for Him to bring to the perfection of His will.

"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."

Romans 12:2 KJV

In my weakness HIS Power was revealed!

One of the reasons I posted about being blessed was; anxiety.

Have you ever suffered from anxiety or have been extremely worried about stuff that you have no control over? Well, I was there... just recently and it was not a very fun place to be...

Last week everything and anything had me crying, upset, in a cold sweat, concerned, distressed, troubled, drained, dragging, exhausted, overwhelmed, miserable, restless, uneasy and completely worried; ANXIETY!!

I know... terrible of me, right? When I should be strong and trust in God with  huge amounts of faith and unceasing prayer. And then I go and talk about all the unmentionables above. But I will be very honest and say;

YES, I was experiencing all these things and so much more...

I had prayed for specific things in my families life (cause we are all in this together). Knowing with all confidence that God would answer everyone of my prayers. I felt a strong tug from God about certain areas  and I knew if the tug was from God, things would happen and changes would take place. I figured that there would be some difficulties, for when you begin to move forward you will encounter struggles, that's a given. I placed all my concerns in the hand of God knowing He would help me through any conflict.  

God provided my husband with an, out of town, job. I know it doesn't sound like a blessing (and at times it doesn't feel like it), but in all honesty, it was. It was given to him when he had been unemployed for over a year and a half (with part of that looking for employment to no avail). And right after my job was no more because of an unforeseen circumstance. God came through, right on time!! At the same time he and I felt a strong tug to start remodeling our home and getting it ready for a future business; daycare/preschool.

So as we began on this whirlwind of an adventure, I realized I was beginning to feel... ah... a little concerned or a tad bit uneasy. As things began to unravel, it turned into an all out war of the emotions. My poor husband was at his wits end, not being able to comfort me when he was so far away on his job; I really felt bad for him as well. My daughter ran out of encouraging words because she felt they were not penetrating the large wall of overwhelming emotion I began to build up.

One of the changes taking place was just the mere fact of re-establishing ourselves in 'order' and 'stability' that we had lost in our years of neglect and irresponsibility.  I have to stop here and tell you that when you decided to take control of your life after being so unconcerned and uncaring about it for so long, it is an overwhelming feat; talk about anxiety!! But with God all things are possible and He will supply all the strength and wisdom you need.

Another change was the fact of finding Julian a new school. Not only did I lose my job but he lost his school as well. How will I ever find anything that will even compare to what we had at Creative Frontier School!? I, personally, do not like the public school and all it's teachings including its disregard to the things of God. But I had to do something quick, summer was at it's end. Public school was not an option and homeschooling was not going to work, I knew Julian was too social to be kept at home, and I needed my sanity. I began to look into charter schools, everyone I looked at had a waiting list so long there was no way he would get in at the start of the school year. I began to panic... just a little. A friend told me about a Private Christian School not to far from where we lived. I checked into it and found that it was affordable IF my business was well on it's way, BUT, my business hadn't even started; I began to bring my plight before the LORD and He heard my cry. I went before the school board and they told me to enroll Julian and they would look into my situation and see what they could do for me. I began to cry with thanksgiving (thinking they were going to give us some kind of scholarship) only to find out after being, a month, into the school they were only going to waive the tuition and the first month. After that Id have to start paying *YIKES* But GOD in all His mercy, knowing it was my greatest dream to send Ju to a good private christian school, came through once again!

There are many things we are facing; only because we have chosen to make God the center of our lives and make changes where changes needed to take place. God gave us the lead, tugged at our hearts and began a work in us... we in turn have had to face the many challenges that come with change. Last week all anxiety broke loose, lol... It over took me in such a grip I honestly felt I couldn't breathe. Why the anxiety?? Well... I began to look at all the impossibilities, all the chances of these dreams and promises not coming to pass.  Why should they, it was unlikely, improbable.
But of course we know that with God ALL things are possible...

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

So my friend; be encouraged in the LORD. God's POWER is revealed in our weaknesses! Boast of your weakness (anxiety) with gladness because the LORDs power will rest in you!! :)

*HALLELUJAH!*

"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7